Happy birthday to all October babies of StrictlyDanceZone
Roar, i am back from Dance camp!
Woots. Had lots of fun and trained alot!
Waves 14, something to work hard towards.
I must improve myself, as a dancer, and as a person.
Look forward to the SDZ Tee man! :D
Dance dance and dance!
However,
As i watch others become better, i felt disappointed with myself. Why can't i improve as fast as them? Why..?
At this point of time, i feel like giving up.
And, i find myself, drifting away from the usual gang. I feel like i'm drowning into a world of loneliness. Maybe, it's the genre problem. No wonder hiphoppers ,moderners and bboys hardly mix much, I think. Yes, i feel lonely in modern, due to the fact that there's not much people i can mix with in modern. Maybe it's just me, maybe it's not. However, if i should let this stop me from dancing, i'll live my life to regret it. As much as i want to be close to the usual gang, i'm afraid, i unable to. Well, it makes not much difference with me there or not anyway. I wonder if i'm able to find other people whom i can feel comfortable talking to and to well hang out with, perhaps, that will never happen. I'm always being outcasted anyway, never liked by any of my friends. Life is just, like that.
Ever since Schizo went to NS, everything changed. With Schizo gone, i realise, i no longer feel like part of the usual gang. I hate how others always term me as a moderner just because i'm different genre from them. It's like, being racist or something. I might be too over sensitive, but well, it's just me. Being a moderner, does it stops me from learning other genre of dance? NO! Perhaps, i might not do well in other genres, but i can work hard. But is it wrong to learn other genre together with modern? I don't know, i feel like, everyone hates me cause i'm doing a different genre and trying to get into the hiphop genre by going for their session. And i feel i should just abandon my passion for hiphop and other genres. I wonder if i should.
Unkle, thank you for your constant everything. Your trainings, your constant motivation, and thanks for scolding me and turning me into a better person. Without you, there wouldn't be a stronger me. Thank you very very much. You inspire me to work even harder. Sorry for disappointing you all these while. I'll show myself, and i'll show you that i can do it. (:
